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Texas has no power!

Momma Bear

As you all know, there has been a wild arctic blizzard going on for the past few days. I am not too very well informed about the politics of all of this, but I do know that a lot of people seem to be blaming this on Governor Abbott and ERCOT, they seem to be in charge of Texas’ power supply. Our home thankfully has not been impacted by the power outages, but my mom and mother-in-law have not had light since yesterday morning. This is ridiculous, it was as low as 23 degrees last night! I was so worried about our moms out there in the cold and darkness. Tonight they finally agreed to leave their homes. I tried for hours to find a hotel for my family but literally every single hotel in the Rio Grande Valley is booked! My mom, dad, and little sister came to stay with us and my mother-in-law is staying at her father’s home; so everyone is safe. But seriously, what about the poor people out there that do not have anyone? Or the poor defenseless animals roaming the streets? Ugh, I don’t know l, I just think all of this could have been avoided and the government just honestly could not give two craps about us. I am afraid of what the future holds as I watch my two beautiful children grow up. They have never known life before COVID, well Luna did for a little over a year but then BOOM! Life just changed completely. I can not help but to feel a little mom guilt because I feel like I can not show them cool places or take them on mini adventures. I can not imagine the families that have no light right now and they have small babies like mine! I do not know what this world is coming to but all I can do is raise my babies correctly, teaching them right from wrong and praying that they will be protected and be the light in this dying and dark world.

Domestic Violence is no Joke.

Momma Bear

My husband and I decided to finally round up the kids and take them out for a little cruise after a couple days of being cooped in due to the arctic freeze. In South Texas it does not really get incredibly cold, but this past week has been FREEZING, at least for us. Anyway, we bundled them up and loaded them in the Jeep when I realized that I could hear somebody yelling in the distance. My husband and I looked at each other with curiosity in both of our eyes as we carefully peeked from behind our car. It sounded like a small car crash and then we heard a girl screaming, “Who the FUCK is this?. I could not really understand what the problem was but from what I could see, the girl was not happy about the two guys hanging out together. She had a baby in her hands, probably around the same age as my little boy; one year old and it was really hitting home for me seeing her struggling with that guy and trying to keep her baby safe. He screamed at her to get in the back of the car and she refused, he grabbed her and tried to shove her in but she fought back and said “I am holding the baby you idiot!”, and that’s when I decided I HAD to call the police. I had a very bad feeling and I felt like I had to help protect her and the baby. I heard her scream at him, “Get out, this is MY car!”, and after about seven minutes of this chaos they finally noticed us looking at them. The guy screams at her again to get in the back of the car and this time she agrees. My throat felt tight as I saw her climb into the back of that car with her little baby, but I could not stop her. How could I? He didn’t even give her a chance to close the door of the car when he sped off all violently like an idiot. I was terrified for her and the baby, I was shaking. I reported everything that I saw to the police and prayed that the police could get to her before something terrible happened. My family and I drove around town, did a few errands and headed back to our apartment about an hour and a half later. Our apartment complex was infested with cops when we arrived, my heart sank. My husband got down first to get down some stuff we had bought from the store and I saw one of the cops beginning to approach the Jeep. I quickly hopped out and he asked me if I knew a man named, we will call him Joe. I said no but asked if he was the one that got into a fight with his girlfriend, because I was the one that called it in. He informed me that the guy ended up pushing the girl out of a moving car, she broke her ankle, he took the baby, AND he was under the influence! I could not believe what I was hearing, I felt so bad like maybe I should have stepped in. I don’t know, but I just felt like maybe if I had done something different, the baby would have been ok and the girl would not have a broken ankle. It has been a full day since this incident and I have not heard any updates. I hope and pray that that family is ok and healing from that situation. The reason I am even writing about this is because I want girls out there to know that they are not alone. Domestic violence is real, and it does not always have to be physical to be abuse. Sometimes girls feel afraid to call the police on their significant others because they are afraid that they will get beat, or even killed. It is a truly tough situation to deal with, I have had a few close friends that have had to deal with this terrible situation. In the end, they came out so much stronger than they ever believed they could be and that showed me that there is always hope. There is a light at the end of every tunnel and sometimes you just have to be brave enough to make it all the way to the end. There is always a way out, there is always an answer. Do what is best for YOU, and never apologize for making decisions that are going to better YOUR life or YOUR happiness. Specially if there are children involved, you have to put on your big girl panties and make decisions for your kids, not for you anymore. Children do not get to pick who their father is or who is around their environment, you do, so don’t fuck it up. You only have one life to live and you deserve to be the happiest, best version of yourself you could be. Be the person you wish you had around when you were little and just keep your head up high. You are never, ever alone.

Raisins almost killed my dog!

Momma Bear

Monday morning comes around and as I’m following my still sleepy toddlers into the living room, I realize that there’s a bunch of raisins on the carpet and a large bag not too far away. I really thought nothing of it until our dog, Bunny, began throwing up and having diarrhea everywhere. I am not kidding it was on the walls and everything, super terrible. I rounded up the kids into their playpen, cleaned up the messes, and began googling, “ what happens if my dog eats raisins?”, and my heart stopped. Apparently, raisins and grapes are the worst things for dogs, other than chocolate of course. The internet basically was telling me that my dog was going to die because the raisins cause dogs’ kidneys to begin failing which ultimately leads to organ failure and death. I was freaking out. All the while trying to keep my cool because my two year old, Luna, is super observant and always watching every single little thing I do, and she was so worried already! I called my husband at his work and quickly explained the situation. He ended up rushing home and we made a emergency visit to the veterinarian, thankfully they were able to see her that very same day. Due to COVID we were not allowed inside the veterinarian’s office so they just took her by herself as we watched anxiously. It took them a while to come talk to us but when they finally did they said they had to take some blood samples and hook her up to an IV to replenish all the fluids she had lost and prescribed her three medications. They explained how if we had not brought her in that day, she definitely would not have made it to see another one. We were all so incredibly relieved to know that our Bunny was going to be alright. We ended up spending close to $300 that day for them to save her life…but it was honestly worth it. It was worth seeing my kids’ smiles when we brought her home and told them she was going to be ok. The kids love her so much and they are always hugging and kissing her, I can not imagine a world without Bunny. She really does bring so much joy into our home. I’m not going to lie though, it is tough having a dog with two babies under three years old but it’s all worth it in the end. Right now she is still on antibiotics, and a pasty medicine that’s supposed to help with her stomach lining if there was any damage done. Bunny is peeing regularly but she has not pooped yet which is a little nerve wracking honestly, but all I can do for now is keep a close eye on her. Moral of the story is: DO NOT LEAVE RAISINS OUT, they are TOXIC to dogs. I am so grateful to Valley Animal Hospital for saving our pup!

Alopecia Update: Tips

Momma Bear

Hi guys! I wanted to give you guys a quick update on how my alopecia areota is going. So I have been dealing with this strange and frustrating diagnosis for about six years now and it has been far from easy. In the beginning all of my hair fell out, literally had to cut almost all of my hair off so that it wasn’t so noticeable. Even after I chopped off all my hair it still took months to grow out enough hair to finally be able to rock a cute pixie cut! Some time passed and I was going through so many different kinds of hair products, trying to salvage what little hair I had left and nothing was working. Eventually even my left eyebrow began to fall out and I was just starting to lose all hope again. I was honestly in the darkest head space you could ever imagine. My family was always very supportive and loving, but I just felt absolutely terrible and self-conscious at all times. I did not want to go anywhere or see anybody for a long time… Anyway, eventually I ended up finding an amazing dermatologist that gives me injections in my head every couple months, it’s extremely painful, but it seems to help when I have new spots to fill in with hair. However, a few years ago I came across the shampoo I had been looking for my entire life! It is a holistic shampoo with all natural ingredients, REAL natural ingredients and it changed the game for me! As soon as I started using the shampoo I began to see results within the FIRST TWO WEEKS! Not only was my hair not falling out but it was REGROWING!! I have been using this magical shampoo for almost three years now and I refuse to use another. Ask my husband, I REFUSE. I don’t know if it’s because of my alopecia but I can not use any shampoo because right away my hair starts falling out like crazy and I have new spots within days, it’s terrible. But with this shampoo I only wash my hair once every other day or so and it is magical! The best part is, it comes with TWO bottles. I could not be anymore grateful and don’t worry I will put a link to this shampoo in the bottom of the blog. They also sell a lot of other amazing holistic products that I ended up exploring and using. I love this site so much I just actually partnered with them after sharing my story with them and I am so happy!! I get to help others and share my story, hopefully I can help you guys out there not feel so lonely. You are not alone in this, and things will get better I promise! I have used many of their products such as the Mullein Leaf Extract when my husband got COVID it really helped him clear out his lungs. I also can not live without the Ashgwanda and Holy Basil mix because it helps with my anxiety SO MUCH! I even used their baby probiotics with my baby, Noah when he had bad gas as an infant. Just check them out and see what you guys like, I promise everything is worth it! They also have a hair regrowth serum that I used on my eyebrow as well as coconut oil and now my eyebrow is flawless! I have another round of shots coming up this Friday so please wish me luck guys I always get so nervous the days leading up to the injections! Anyway, I hope you guys have a lovely evening and let me know if you have any tips or just want to vent about anything. I love you! Here is the link ❤️

https://www.holisticthingz.com/wearepoobears

You Are…

Momma Bear

You are everywhere. You are the reason behind…everything I do really. I do not even think that you have, or will ever have any idea how much you motivate me every single day. You may not be aware of it but every single day, every choice I make, every work out I do, every extra mile I go; you are behind it all. I just want to make you so proud. You have made me so incredibly proud and I just know that you are going to do amazing things in your life. I close my eyes and I imagine you off on some spectacular adventure, living your dreams, & being surrounded by nothing but love and happiness; that’s what I want for you. For many years many have tried to get me to understand their reasonings. For so long many have begged me to change my ways or to live my life a certain way and I have never once found a reason to change a thing about myself. I was content living my life the way I was, always putting myself first, and never caring about anybody else at all. But then, you came along… with that captivating smile and those deep dark eyes that I can not help but to get lost in them. You have always mesmerized me. Your laugh is music to my ears and I will continue to push myself to live my best life and staying on the right track. I would do anything as long as it ensures that you bless me with your smiles and your vibrant personality. I would do anything for you. You have impacted me more than anything or anyone I have ever come across. You are amazing…Your life is a gift to this earth and I just hope you know how much you mean to me…you are the best thing that ever happened to me and I will continue to push through and fight every single day for you. I just want you to be proud of me…you are, and always will be absolutely everything to me.

Why I chose to stop drinking.

Momma Bear

This isn’t one of my favorite topics to write about because it’s very real for me…but I feel like it’s necessary. Alcohol has never brought me anything good, it has always led me to some sort of problem in the past. Well, ever since I met my husband and we started building our little family I definitely slowed down and even cut out liquor altogether just because I noticed that it wasn’t even worth it anymore, I needed to be 100% for my kids. Well ever since I had my second baby, Noah, my alcohol tolerance has shot down to zero basically. I had been sticking to wine only lately because it seemed like that’s all I could handle but recently, that’s been changing. I noticed that if I ever surpassed my two glasses of wine I would get a strong buzz and would wake up with really bad headaches the next day. If I had a headache then I felt like I couldn’t be the best me I could be with the kids and I didn’t like that. Well, this past weekend my husband and I were able to get away with the kids and my mother in law and we took everybody to the beach. We had the best time but I feel like because I had a couple drinks it led up to probably THE dumbest fight of my life. I ended up getting overly upset because my husband gave our dog, Bunny, the last of my two year old’s beef jerky sticks when we got back from dinner. It had definitely been a stressful day with the drive, the kids, & the dog and I think that one little thing made me just blow up. I ended up making a huge deal out of something that honestly should not have been that big of a deal. I made a mountain out of a mole hill as others would say. Well, anyway, thankfully I quickly realized that the reason I felt SO angry and annoyed was mostly because of the alcohol intake. I hated myself for a moment, I felt like I had ruined the night, the weekend! My husband and I sat quietly in the dark and I gathered myself and put my ego aside, I sincerely apologized to him. I thanked him for being so patient and loving with me, he truly has been such a good partner throughout all of this and I refuse to lose him or my family because of my old ways. I had an epiphany that night that showed me that everything bad I ever got into when I was young, was because of the alcohol. I could keep putting the blame on others or I could start taking responsibility for myself. It was time to make a change, a change I could not bring myself to do before. I really disliked myself that night because that is not the type of person I wanted my children to grow up with so I made the decision to just cut it out of my life. Thankfully that night did not turn out as bad as it could have and I was able to salvage the weekend. I know it has only been a week but I am serious about this next step in my journey. I even read that some people are allergic to alcohol and it causes their hair to fall out, so maybe it will even help in my case with alopecia. Every day is a battle but my family is worth the fight. They are my reason. “One is not enough and two is too many.” , is a quote that always stuck with me…& I intend on sticking with this decision. Someone once told me that alcohol is meant to celebrate something, not just drink it simply just because, and that’s the level I aspire to get to. I will only, MAYBE, enjoy a drink when I have something to celebrate such as my birthday or an anniversary; other than that hello sobriety!