Endless thoughts keep rushing in my mind like a loud waterfall I can never really seem to escape from. It always seems to be so loud in here and it’s been this way for as long as I can remember. In the deafening silence from lying wide awake at 4am, I notice the sound of you breathing next to me. My little boy, you have only been in my life for two years and already I know that you were the missing piece. You are what I had been searching for for so long and I just never knew it.
The sound of your peaceful breathing next to me reminds me that there is always something to fight for in the world, as long as there is love. Love is the feeling I get when I look into your beautiful, big, brown eyes or when you place your tiny, chubby hands on the sides of my face before you drift off to sleep. In a world full of darkness with a humanity that is quickly losing faith in itself, you my love, are a breath of fresh air. The grand amount of light and love you carry within your little body is what this world needs to keep going.
I truly do not know what I did right to deserve you and your sister but I am eternally grateful to God for allowing me to be your mommy in this lifetime and I promise you guys that I will find you in every lifetime to come. You are what brought me to life when I had already decided that there was no more life within me and I was just ready for whatever horrible tragedy was to become of me. You brought out the greatness in me, the mother goddess warrior, and I am ready to fight for you always. I truly believe you will make this world a better place and you have so much to offer.
I am terrified of what this world is becoming and for bringing you into this. You are too pure to be brought up in this chaos, but I know that you will be a light in this darkness just as you have been the lighthouse that brought me home. The love I have for you is beyond infinite and I can not wait to see what magic you bring into this life my baby.
Truths from a Mommy 